Wish.. I could go back..

Everyone likes being nostalgic, loves to flashback the childhood memories every now and then... It gives great joy, sometimes fills our eyes with tears, just wanting to go back again to those times... Be in the sweet warmth of your mom, shrinking yourself in size to fit on to her laps... Ofcourse mom loves you even now, but that feeling is a different one.. Unforgettable.. In whichever part of the world you are. howmuch ever hectic your life is..


This refers back to 1996, dats when I was in my 6th standard and “responsibilities” came on to my shoulders.. dats when my mom decided she needs to go to work after taking a loooong gap, when she realised she has given enough of her time and care to both her kids, now they can manage themselves on their own!! And yes, we did!! My everyday morning saw the routine duty of filling lunchboxes immediately after brushing my teeth, my brother ironing the uniform and my dad doing the final touch-up for the breakfast which mom finished cooking 90% and went on for a shower... Everything was perfectly synchronised, next is my shower, then bro’s.. By then my mom must have left to catch her bus, almost everyday running, gulping/skipping her breakfast and ofcos after sipping her daughter-made tea.. My next assignment is to tie my hair on my own- which I learnt to do pretty well in course of time!! The first day of moms school, I told her confidently – don’t worry amma, I will manage, I have seen you do it for me everyday, now I can try! Little did I know seeing is not doing.. I took the comb and ribbon in hand, didn’t get any clue how she started!! But I was sure once I get to know the start I can do it!! Helpless, my father stood beside me watching my bro already tying his lace.. We have another 5 min walk to the bus stop!! Missing the bus is a big scary thing then... So the next scene is me standing in the school assembly with a big red nose, explaining to everyone, my sad tale of mom starting to work. Nobody paid much attention thou!! :(


Back home at 4 in the evening, another round of MY tea 4 all, and then cartoons... I remember the adrenaline rush I experienced when the clock ticked 5...Time for mommy darling to reach home and finally am getting someone to tell my school tales of the day.. She comes home with a small plastic bag in hand, which definitely will be some snack for us, but I was more interested in her than the snack.. She listens to all my nonsense sipping the 1 hour-cold tea, rarely showing lack of interest in my words, but I was intelligent enough to understand that she is not listening!! I shout then- Amme, you are not listening!! To the proof of which she has to repeat the sentence I just completed.. In between she keeps on asking my brother – Mone, what happened with you in your class?? How did you spend your day?? – Answer is a silence.. Boys don’t like to talk or they consider all this silly?? Anyways, this made me envious, why always he?? Am compensating for him na!!

Mom used to say I was a good student then.. I just don’t remember that part!! ;) it seems I did all my homework without any compulsion, I was much tensed about my class tests that mom didn’t ever have to remind me to study!! My brother was an intelligent+lazy brain! This combination just meant that mom had to sit near him to study.. The situation at home was tense one fine day morning, Chemistry paper for my brother and mom asking him questions.. Final revision you know!! Smart kid – ie, ME is ready for her paper hiding behind the curtain to watch the tense moments going inside the room.


Mom’s question : Element with ‘Mo’ symbol???

Brother : Cracking his brain to squeeze the answer out of it through his mouth – but unable to..

Me : Wish I knew, I would have helped him.. Cos I cry more when my bro gets beaten!! And then both of us, Oh my!! Wat a drama.. Sweet it was, must admit thou!



Mom waits for some more time and then gives up. She announces to my sweet bro : Mo is Molybdenum!! The emphasis of b and d in moms voice because of the anger was such that I swear the word sounded damn funny to my ears!! (P.S : Try to pronounce this word, the same way keeping in mind the same “tense situation” at home!! ) I started giggling aloud behind the curtains, hearing which my bro couldn’t help it, but laugh out aloud, followed by mom!! All happy, both of us set out for exams!! ;)


Already lost in thoughts.. Tears filling my eyes... Wish I could go back!!!